Friday, July 18, 2008


Just some crazy things on my mind.....

Life is incredible one moment you are floating on cloud 9 and the next eating dirt. A lot of crazy and sad things have happened this month, starting with my very special Grandpa passing away. Funerals are never easy, the only positive is the family that always comes together to celebrate a wonderful life like my grandpas. It was wonderful to see all of my Dad's family. I can't believe how hard it was saying goodbye to such an important person in my life. Bearlake will never be the same without him. I am so grateful that I had the chance to say goodbye in person 2 weeks before he passed away. I love him so much and I am so grateful for his life and all that he did for me. He will be extremly missed.

The rest of the crazy happenings are things that just make you take a moment and really look at yourself and your life. I love my Husband and my daughter so much. I realize that in this life everything you love can be taken away from you in a blink of an eye, so you must appreciate every moment you have. Tell the people around you that you love them and show them daily how you feel.

Adoption, hmmm... where do I start, being on a waiting list is the easy part of the process if you have no feelings. Every time a birth mom looks at us is so exciting but you lay awake at night wondering what she is going through, has she made up her mind, will she pick us to be apart of her childs life. I really try not to care, who am I kidding? I care with all of my heart, there is nothing more precious then a baby. Perhaps you know how I feel, waiting for a family (anyway it happens for you) is a long hard process. Sometimes it just feels so good to talk about it, get it out there. Now I can go on with my daily life and pretend that we are not waiting for that phone call. I am just so grateful that I have beautiful Isabelle to tuck into bed each night, what would I do without her, and I can't forget Birdie, Izzy's Birth Mom. Going though this process again really makes me remember how much a miracle it is to have her in our life and what she has done for us.

I am so grateful for all of my friends and family, they make this life so enjoyable and I really can't imagine what life would be like without each one of them not there. Okay just a few of my thoughts and feelings. Writting really can be theraputic and for me is very needed.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Our Little Dancer!

Izzy had her first dance class this week, she loved it. She is a year younger then the rest of the girls in her class, but she did really good. She never stopped dancing and was so happy all the way until the end.

Izzy with her darling dance teacher.

She was great at jumping the cones and playing with them too. She was very upset when anyone knocked one over, she had to fix it every time.

She was in heaven, doing her favorite things in the whole world, dancing and wearing princess clothes. I must say I was in heaven too, I have waited my whole life to have a little girl to take to dance class, and what a perfect little princess she is.